I love my best friend's excellent taste in music.  It's so interesting and nice.  But especially useful.

Because when I'm already in a slightly depressed mood and she just gives me all these INTENSELY DEPRESSING BUT RELEVANT songs, that put into words my feelings better than I ever could.  And that she understands.  The level of the pain.  Or at ( Read more... )

Will post later today/tomorrow.  Will cover: Lost my virginity. (YAY!Steve)  Went on Beach Retreat. (Nice but Bleh too much Catholicism in close quarters/No communication with outside world)

Have flu now.  Hurts.  Can't talk well cause of throat.  Nose runs constantly, is annoying.  Love my roomate, she got me my favorite new candy,  Reffaello ( ( Read more... )

No matter how depressed I get about school sucking up all my free time and me never having any time for myself, my friends, or getting to sleep like a normal person, just pages and pages of Multilingualsm crap and the ancient Vedic Age.....a couple of episodes of Veroinca Mars, some candy, and some sweet tea always help.

There's really nothing that ( Read more... )

Ok  seriously, this is gonna be my quickest update like ever.  Bullet style.  I'm that tired.

-Been spending muchos time with the girls.  Hannah, Steph, Ashley (thank goddess, I missed her), even Monique.  We've put in hours and cleaned Steph's and Hannah's rooms from head to toe.  Spent the night at Hannah's, finished 10th Kingdom, finally watched ( Read more... )

I don't know what made my body hate me, but it's been like....jacking me up.  Headaches and stomaches, backaches and throataches.  Bleh.  I slept 11 hours today (7AM-6 PM) but I still feel woozy.

I've also been like...halluniinating?  Not really, but I have a really good imaginiation, and when Ryan and I had that fight in the car I just imagined ( Read more... )

 So I've tried twice now to post about my last 2 weeks, and LJ or Jensen eats it.  I'll just try later.

Good day today.  Stayed up till 5 in the morning watching stuff with Ryan (finishing this HORRIBLE documentary called Jesus Camp about evangelical kids going to this summer camp in North Dakota called "Kids on Fire".  It made me cry, how fucked up ( Read more... )

I can't stop crying.  But not the bad kind, the good kind.

God I'm such a girl. My mom sent me this thing on AOL and I read it and immediately lost it.

I'm putting it here because my heart just aches and I'm sad but know I'm lucky, my head stuffed full of memories and hiccupping/breathing cause I know I'll get what I want eventually, I just have ( Read more... )

 And apparently my boyfriend just broke up with me.

THE FUCK?

Am I that worthless?  I'm too much trouble to keep, long-distance.  He doesn't have time for me.

I don't know whether to cry or be relieved.  And that makes me guilty, which hurts my fucked up stomach even more.

He has the nerve to do this over a text, and then when I say back I understand ( Read more... )

It fucking sucks being a girl man. Why isn't the Midol working yet?  *sniff*

*curls up in a ball and whimpers*

I want my Mommy.

There's always some reason, to feel not good enough; and it's hard at the end of the day.

Gods, if Morpheus fucked me right now, I'd be soo grateful. I'm about to drop dead right here at the monitor.

Don't wanna get into my long, effin, crapshoot of a day.  That still isn't over.

ARGGG!

The only highpoint was finishing ET today, which made me cry ( Read more... )